im relieved that i had cleared half of my debts in class. forty dollars gone just like that. and i still owe another sixty dollars. darn it. its really depressing actually to owe people money as i hate the part where i need to ask my parents for the money. [p.s i had trouble in saving :S]
so anyway, school was mudane. we had some performing arts for assembly. and its from the chinese opera. they amused me by doing their dangerous stunts and their make up[somehow scary too]. and again, i replaced some of the periods for pipedreams today.
my performance in class is getting worse. i dont know what is happening to me. oh my. and i was named mrs smith a.k.a angelina jolie and syaifullah mr.smith a.k.a brad pitt. aha. oh ya. not forgetting. im theee K.T.G. the complete combo. *insert horny smile*

ok im off to jurong point now.

im being ridiculous to sleep as late as 4.30am in the morning during school days. obviously that show im seriously having trouble throughout the periods. all thanks to me for being hooked to taiwan dramas. *insert wide smile*
i cant wait for saturday. i miss waikiki. im craving for starbucks drinks. and im bursting to taste that d.i.y drink he's going to make specially for me. forward the time please!


went to meet raymond and his step brother, Benson [a new friend i made today]. the chill session at coffee bean was fun and somehow disgusting in a way. all thanks to raymond to come out with the topic of shit,urine and farting. both raymond and benson were so engrossed telling each other the stories regarding the topic while i sat there in the middle feeling disgusted by it. i didnt knew guys were so grossed.

now im feeling somewhat worried about class tomorrow. cause i left my important file with benson. darn it.







i need some motivation. perhaps some inspiration too. i got to put myself on the right track. the track that would lead and guide me to success. i got to stop substituting my lessons with my dreams, be more focus instead of dreaming during lessons, be more organised and especially being truthful to myself in terms of doing school/homeworks and not duplicating classmate's works. and if i managed to push away the indolence in me, it wouldnt be a problem for me in achieving success.

i watched those O-level top students in my school with envy. i understand it takes a lot of hardwork and perseverance to attain that but to me, when i looked at their results, it gave me the impression that it is so effortless for them achieving distinction is most of their subjects. i need to buck up. i want to achieve the best result that i could get. dont you think it is the greatest feelings that you could ever felt if you manage to accomplish your goals and just lift up your head and just feel proud?

mom is really annoying in a way. the word "firdaus" had been coming out from her mouth quite often these few days. i dont know why. she said she could only remember the name "firdaus" out of all other guys names. i miss you boy. it's useless to say all this now but i cant deny i regret about my actions,my mistakes. i wanna sit by your side at the carpark rooftop again and just watch the sunset like what we used to do in the past.

current life is practically boring me out. seems like i couldnt really concentrate on my studies despite the fact that im not contacting anyone special in particular now. my daily routine is this : morning to school,afternoon supplementary class and then head home. i will then either sleep or do my schoolworks or play the computer for the rest of the day unless i got plans to go out[which is mostly made between my siblings]. to conclude this,the year of twothousandeight is by far the most boring,dull and pathetic year of my life.



kindly ignore my face on this picture. i looked so pale cause i was sick at that particular time. my focus is on farah. my dearly beloved darling had turned sixteen today! apologised for not giving any present at the moment but soon, no worries. a wish and a tight hug was good enough to show you that i love you so much. how unfair issit for you being able to watch NC16 rated movies now. pfft. haha.whatever it is,



i saw alot of familiar faces today. especially this guy who bought for me the f21 yellow sleeveless shirt. he look adorable tonight. my smile change to frown when i read his private message. oh well, i miss him anyway.

sore throat and cough is killing me. yet im stubborn enough to smoke. how stupid can i be?

went out to meet my dearly missed Raymond. i was late and he made me walk all the way from cityhall to raffles as he shifted there without even informing me. all the other friends whom i used to hang around with last time was there. somehow great to meet them again, get to feel the old times. then came afiq and friends. talk and joke around with them and head home. it was pretty mundane actually.

i've been feeling sick these few days. and i did not seem to be recovering. after one,another one. now im suffering from sore throat,cough and a slight migraine. could my health be anymore worst?
im pretty much irritated with the school's late coming system. careless if it is your first time or not, you wont be allowed to enter your respective classrooms. instead, you will be direct to sit at the concourse for the whole day. i should consider you guys would be thinking the same thing as me. might as well we dont even turn up for school knowing that we are already late right? and also, at least do give a second chance for the first timers [ refering to anyone who is in the same state as mine today]. perhaps a warning too. i regretted for not turning back and walk out of school. i've wasted roughly 6 hours of my precious life. perhaps i could take note of this. if i were to see myself standing at the school's bustop at 7.20 in the morning, i should just crossover and took the bus home.

ngeen ann polytechnic open house was unexciting and wearisome. and they didnt provide much adorable guys. boring! haha.

good thing i just recovered from fever and migraine. thank god. i'm feeling way better now. so anyway,class was pretty mundane today. p.e was exciting i guess. even though it was tiring, it was all worth it since i had fun. other than p.e, other subjects was just okay. one thing i want to point out. it is about money. money to pay assesment books and other class stuffs. i clearly know that it is for my own good. but the demand for money has been stressing me out. after paying one, there goes another one to pay. im too afraid to ask mom for money cause i've been asking for more money quite a few times now. despite my own saving, frankly i still owe the class and teachers approximately 80 dollars. i'm doom. :S

so much for the lie that you had given to mentor stating that you are sick when you're not last week, you end up being sick [this time for real] today. to think that mentor was a good teacher, i was proven wrong. she actually cursed on me. -_-

that basically indicate that i didnt have a good time in class today. the class seems to be chilly to me when it was actually warm, with the scorching sun looking directly on the class.my body went all weak and vulnerable. i couldn't even pay attention during lessons. all i had in thought was to lay my head on the table and just dozed off. after school was unbearable. my body was all cramped and aching. plus i had to carry my 10kg bag. i caught a glimpse of a young kid stretching out his arm with his schoolbag and his maid took it and just carry. i let out a big sigh and questioned "can i have a maid now?" aha.

now, im at home. feeling much better already after being forced and lectured by mom for being stubborn. stubborn on not wanting to take in two tablets of panadol. i could be obstinate sometime. especially when it comes to sickness.

The Super Insurgent Group of Intemperance Talent a.k.a The S.I.G.I.T performance were magnificent despite of the scarce and dull crowd. even though it was my first[and hoping it's not the last] time knowing them and watching their performance, i'd already attracted to them. i had no regrets with my decision in choosing to go out with sazz to catch the s.i.g.i.t instead of sitting at home completing my schoolworks since it was all worth it. the best moment is when sazz himself and friends and myself hung out with the s.i.g.i.t backstage after their performance for like and hour? great isn't it. we made friends with their friends, chit chat and take photos here and there. one word. wooooo! okay that's not a word i know. i'll update the photos once i received it by this new indon friend.

REKTI! <3