i just hope you will realise one day. and seriously, whenever i think of you, i cant help it. this smile comes across my face.

im just telling.
benson, take care of your swollen leg.
zaf, take care of your health.
get well soon dear friends.

and i wonder why my dear eek is absent today. hmm.
i spent almost three quater of my day with books and schoolworks. and phew i managed to finish all the homeworks that is given today although it was due next week. currently loving my study mood. i wished it will stuck and trap in me till Os is over. *finger crossed*

all this study mood made my weekends go a little mundane. weekends spent at home? no way! seriously, i got no life ready other than school and books. nvm, its okay. atleast it's worth something.

dad, can i have tuition? :s
i've been sleeping alot and i've been dreaming alot of weird stuffs. those dreams just cracked me up cause what i can recall is that, all of it doesnt make sense at all. haha.
from going out with a teacher to being a power ranger and then to snails invading the world. seriously wth. i know.
finally had my first puff after for so long. i seriously got nothing to write here. my life is getting more mundane and dull day after day. my gawd...
pfft.

'lala the most boring girl with the most boring life ever in the world. bla bla bla....'
should i drop biology or not? im confused. did nothing much but just stayed in school till 5 plus to do homeworks. and fah, you are so hilarious just now. HAHA.

dont be sorry. i should be. for being a fool and over reacting. fuck i hate this feeling. im ashamed. ok i got no more to say. i sooo stupidnkmampos.
im trying very hard to strengthen our friendship but you guys made it so difficult. forget it, i give up. im sorry for being too much of a pessimistic.
i saw that guy. the guy whom i thought to be my dearest of all. what i saw today proved that he isnt that dearest anymore. when i were with you last time, you brought her along while meeting me. and then you told me that she is your cousin. but now what do i see? cousins getting so close to each other and holding each other? fuck you la cousins. that also proved that our relationship were all a lie. what you told me or buy for me were a lie. i told mum. mum seriously got no comments about it. ok done.



im amused by the colours and lights when i watched chingay with sis. all i know was that i wished i was one of the performers. conferm best. :)
i replaced most of my lessons for pipedreams again. i should really stop that bad habit. anyway, i didnt went out today. instead i spent my friday with amni and farah till evening before heading home. after maths supplementary, we three had our second lunch at kfc. eat and gossip is all we do. seriously we gossiped extra alot today. anything and everything and everyone. not only that. there were some confession
moments too. hah. we sat at the stadium after that and continued from where we stopped. ok i had fun. somehow i didnt regret on not going out today. huhu.

i spent my thursday at home. spent the other half of the day in front of the desktop with my siblings. i released air particles a lot of times and it smell like extremely spoilt vegetables. my bad. i had a bad tummy ache. lol.

you didn't went to school again today. i really felt guilty or maybe i shouldn't because i think you're just simply lazy. haha. and how adorable you are to send me a chain message.

oh, happy vday people? :)



oh its thurs tmr. and i still thinking whether to go out with him or stay at home study or maybe sleep. prolly i spent the day with my siblings. ya i think should be it. i think.
okay nothing much happening today. i only enjoy the part where i get to enjoy takoyaki. and i was named 'girl takoyaki' by zaf. hahaha. nice one. :)

im chatting with you now but then i prefer to otp. i miss our late night talks. but..i scared you find me irritating. i dont want that to happen again. so let it just be this way.




im seriously not looking forward to vday. i just want to go out with my friends and have fun with them. or maybe just stay home and sleep or make time useful by revising my weak subjects. aha. speaking about vday, i rmbr f.nad say that her sis overhead this sec1 girl said "eh aku nak dapat boyfriend arh sebelom valentine"
i went speechless while giving the wth face. oh well, young kids these days. haha. wokay look who's speaking. :O

ooo. i bump into you today. in my worst condition. i felt kinda embarrassed though. anyway, im still smilling. *insert wide smile*

i swore cough is the most irritating sickness ever. i sound like a big bear coughing during flag raising. obviously it's embarrassing. i tried to hold it but i cant. im forced to let it out. damnit. to think again, it's practically my fault for not eating any kind of medicine at all. ooops.
the most fearful thing ever that i encounter today was that when i look at myself at the mirror and saw this hideous thing below my eye. one double eyebags was already a nightmare. certainly NOT both eyes with double eyebags. i swore i freaked out just now when i saw it. maybe i should do this from now on. sleep at 10 and for goodness sake sacrifice my late night talks and sitting infront of the com till late in the night. and perhaps get one of this facial stuff to get rid of eyebags. i already had one in mind. but im afraid it will cost alot. pfft.

and you. you are getting more arrogant nowadays. you are no more the friendly you. fine, i get you. i'll go away then. im actually being a fool to actually tried so hard to 'get-your-attention'. how stupid could i get? [dont smile cos i know you will]

supposedly to spent my day completing my homeworks. i end up sitting infront of the desktop and chat all day. till now, i've yet to touch my books. oh dear. im famished. when will mom come back from gayland?

i made quite a number of new friends today. :)

and i miss you alot. you know who you are.

i miss the journey to and from pasir ris park. and im down with flu and headaches again.
god damnit. and i dont hate you at all.

im surprised. im happy. you're actually sweet but sarcastic though. *insert very wide smile*

anyway,
happy birthday to my lovely twins. abang & adek. twenty years old or what.
today were great excluding the part when i was warned by most of my subject teachers cause i slept during their lesson.[thanks to you,mister] my two darlings and myself had our dinner at macdonald. it has been some time since we last had our dinner together. the atmosphere were fantastic. cracked jokes and laughed out loud like no one business. i swore i were the loudest. hah. my bad. thank god tomorrow is half day and plus no lessons for the four express since our first period is PE. captains ball!


you know what i think? i think that you and your friends are talking behind my back. i think that they are making fun of me and teasing you and you'll get all pissed off and thats became the explanation why your way of talking towards me somehow changed. if that is really the case, im sorry and perhaps i could start giving you lesser attention. and please dont think otherwise. i just like chit-chatting with you, not more. apology for the negative thoughts. you yourself know i always think that way. i just wanted to voice out my thoughts. nevertheless, im sure that you wouldn't think that im actually giving you trouble. im sure that you appreciated our everyday talks. if not, nvm..i dont know what more to say.

i suffered headaches again during lessons. and damn, i hate the feeling. even so, i managed to put on a smile and still be as hyperactive as usual. cant deny that im actually enjoying my days in school as days passed by. exclude the study part please. the presence of my nonsensical darlings are the reason why im looking forward to school everyday. not only that, secretly stalking this chinese guy in school with amni and wani were great too. he is too adorable. my days in school wouldnt be complete till i catch a glimpse of his face,at least. haha. not only i stalked people, i do irritate people too. those seating behind me and beside me are my victim. and i do became a part time pervertic arsehole who goes around hitting my darling's private parts. thanks to farah for influencing me. fun isnt it? *insert wide smile*

okay im deeply tired now.

to conclude, if you're okay with everything, im content.
since nothing actually happened today, lets talk about yesterday instead. i met my dearly missed old friend, Oggy. we had our dinner at Thai Express at esplanade. two of his friends tagged along too. thanks for the treat oggy. * insert wide smile* we then head to marina square to buy drinks. and ergh, they bought Scotch. it tasted awfull. i never like whisky. and so i managed to take the last train home and reached home at twelve plus. with that, i was grounded for today. -_-

dont you think time passes so fast? like suddenly, it is February already. oh my.
it was a heart-melting performance by mr kan[the physics teacher]. fancy him to replace 10 mins of our lesson time to showcase his talent by playing some acoustic songs. its worth it.

my eyes are heavy as a 10 kilo bag laying on the eyelids now. so i just make it brief here.
-apology to you,raymond for not informing you that i wont be coming for the expo gig just now.
-spent most of the time on the phone with benson aka BFB[benson big foot]
-met my dearly eek and tasha.
-chill at al-tazzaq at haji lane;sisha-ing

im feeling very lethargic right now. im sleepy. so goodnite readers. :)