Adam Khoo's I Am Gifted, So Are You Program was really a memorable one. All I can say now is that it made a drastic change in my life. It help to boost up my self esteem and at the same time woke me up from my own world to actually face reality. I guess you guys out there already gone through this program and Im very sure you guys enjoyed it too. And gawd, those trainers I had. They are amazing. They could be the most hilarious jokers who gave absolutely lame jokes that you guys would actually laughed out loud not because of the jokes but because of their stupidity. No offense though. They are too a bunch of perverts who practically relate stuffs to sex and private parts to every story or things they have to say. But most importantly, apart from all that, they could make you cry with their amazing stories of their past life and make you realized that everyone and anyone can succeed if they have the determination and perseverance to pursue their goals. I envy them. But hey, I tell myself. I can be like them. Cause I've been wanting to help people, mostly the younger ones or even teenage like me, to overcome every obstacle of their lives and made a big impact in their lives. And so, I learnt this thing called GOALS in this program. I've set my goals already. And now, my journey starts now. And I remind myself that it is never too late if you have the determination to achieve your goals. My goals is to prove my family and relatives WRONG that I can be a bright person and Im certainly not a useless piece of crap walking alive. Hah. Because they think I am one. Bullshit. Anyway like I said, I love helping people and I love working and communicating with small kids. Im not only on the journey of proving them wrong but to get into NUS Faculty of Arts in Psychology and then continue studying in Child Psychology. 
Tragedy strikes yesterday. I lost my phone unintentionally. In other words, I was careless. So yeah. I dont really mind about the sim card. But I'm surely bothered about losing a Sony Ericsson w800i. I guessed luck just wasn't by my side that night. And now I'm stuck with a boring Samsung phone with small limited space. Ish. Anyhow, I went to Plaza Singapura today to get the replacement sim card. And fortunately, it was free for first-timers. Since boyfriend slept over my house last night, he tagged along. One thing I must mentioned. I accidentally burped out loud while walking and at the same time talking to boyfriend. Seriously, I didnt expect it to turn out that loud. All I thought was that, it will be usual tiny burp. Sadly, it did not. Of course I EMBARRASSED towards him. Lucky me, there's no one walking near us at that particular time. Still, I was ashamed. Boyfriend laughed out loud. Thank you so much, dear.
Sun-tanned for the very first time. The sun were really scorching hot. Although I am dark, I hate the sun literally. I am what they called 'puteri lilin'. So yeah. Sentosa were enjoyable today. I had an exciting time with my friends and i finally, for the first time during this holidays, went out with Eek love. Weird? I know. Happy birthday, Ahmad Izzat. That small birthday bash and that outstanding present was surely an unforgettable one, aye? Like I told you, frame it and put it on the display. Haha.
I'm down with flu. And god, I hate the part when my nose were blocked while sleeping. It's like you need to breathe in air through your mouth and you can taste the dust. Ugh. I barely studied nothing. So much for the full force studying for this whole week. Whatever. I miss boyfriend. :(
Oddly, these past few days, I've been myspacing and making friends with people from other countries. Teenagers from the States, Jakarta, Kuala Lumpur and even Japan. But sometimes, I had some difficulties in understanding the way they phrase their sentences. Seems pretty weird to me. Oh wells. Anyway, accompanied boyfriend to queenstown to get him some new studs. And he just wasted eight bucks, literally. 
And to think that I'll for sure going to have a great time studying tomorrow, menses hit me today. Fuck. How is it am I going to face both pressure from books and cramps? I know Im good at multi-tasking. But certainly not this. This is unfair.  Obviously Im not in a good mood now. So I wont brag on it. I couldn't stand watching dad coughing so badly. I just felt so afraid. For no particular reason. But dad can't seem to stop coughing. And this isn't the usual cough. What matters now is that dad get well soon. Im worried. Happy Father's Day, dad. I love you so much. 
I enjoyed today. Surprisingly we could put aside the despondency just like that. It's as if a minute we're in conflict, the other minute we're in silence and then the next minute we're beaming at each other and giggling at the same time. It seems odd but at least it comes to a good end. Well, to me it is normal. Cause I simply couldn't understand why i would for sure end up laughing upon seeing his face, each time i tried to put up a fierce looking expression as i was pissed with him about minor stuff at that particular time. So that basically tells that i could never be angry with him because he always make me smile. Unless it's major. Today's date was a bit rocky at first but it went smooth at the end. I had a fun time. I miss boyfriend. *sad face* 

Sometimes I wonder if I really meant something in your life. I know I do. But at the same time, I don't. I just couldn't understand why is it so hard for you to give me a one simple call for the day. This may be minor. But it is a major thing to me. It made me ponder. Like who am I to you actually? Do I really mean a lot to you? Like can't you stop whatever you were doing for a few minutes and give me a call so that I could ask you how thing is going, are you alright and have you eaten. Stuff like that. Im only asking for a single call for the whole day. And it's already hard for you to get it done? I bet others out there, you will for sure be furious about not having to contact your boyfriend or girlfriend for one whole day. And I mean not a single call or message. Yeah, I appreciate that sometimes you managed to call me before you turn in. But why am I always the 'last-thing' on your to-do list? That made me ponder again. I sms-ed you umpteen times. Asking you to give me a call. But you ignored. I know your prepaid is low and you couldn't reply. But after like 6 smses from me you still did nothing, that was too much. What's the use of public phone? Im not asking much. I just can't accept the fact that you leave me waiting while you're enjoying lepak-ing. I understand you are tired from work. But it doesn't make sense. Why do you have energy to lepak and smoke all that, but not a bit energy to call me? Its not like you're carrying a heavy load weighing 20 kilograms. You may find me childish to be furious about this minor thing. Like I said, It is not minor. Just by a simple call to me, it really tells whether you care for me and love me. Im pissed with you, baby. 
From a normal lepak session turned to a very interesting one. Boyfriend and I actually wrestled each other. And please don't think otherwise. We were really hitting each other just like what you see at WWE inside the ring. Aha. Surprisingly we had fun. Find us weird or odd. That was just a 'once in a blue moon thing'. And then we talked. People committing suicide, war, slaughtering humans, family backgrounds and the background of Islam. That was really random though. But we couldn't stop telling each other stories. I just appreciate whole heartedly how boyfriend actually accepted me for who i really am and not the Lala you see with make-up on that act as a mask to cover her ugliness. And how he could really tolerate my stubbornness. I love you, baby. 
My progress is currently below zero percent. How in the world am i going to survive. Sheesh. Im just so slothful when it comes to study during the holidays. 
Surprisingly my night at esplanade was an interesting one. Unlike those other few days where boyfriend and I completely had no idea where to go and we eventually ended up sitting at esplanade watching those 'trendy' people that fascinate us and what else, we gossiped. *winks* Today was entertaining because this trio from Canada called Bam amused us with their comedy acts and outstanding drum performance. They were really funny, I tell you. And god, their tights were so tight that their 'balls' were actually showing out. Kinda obscene though for the young kids. Aha. But still. Its hee-yuuuge. Anyway, I miss boyfriend already. Like always. I couldn't get enough of him. Hah. 
I seriously couldn't stick myself at home. Cause all i could do is to eat, sleep and watch tv. If i were to study at home, I'll for sure end up sleeping on top of my textbooks. If i were to keep myself from sleeping[cos long hours of sleeping is tiring!], I'll for sure end up watching the tele. And if i were to watch the tele for the whole day, I'll for sure feel hungry and end up eating junks. And if i were to eat every hour!, that will for sure make me go *BOOM!* FATTY BOM BOM. And how cruel is my parents to punish me and not letting me go out?! Well, in fact they should. Cause I've been asking money every single time when I'm going out. Perhaps, I should stop doing that. Okay, thats certainly a must. I shall try this out one day, go out with absolutely empty pockets[except for my ezlink card]. :O I wonder how it will feels like.

Anyway, i got to know that boyfriend went to Johor Bahru today to visit his relatives cause one of his beloved uncle passed away yesterday night. I felt so sorry about it. I've yet to contact with him till now. I wonder how he is doing. I miss him too much. I'm kind of contented and proud of my sleeping time management these few days. I've been sleeping early as 2130 and waking up as early as 0800 everyday. Today's an exception, I'm sleeping late cause i wanna catch ANTM on tv. It used to be my most watched tv programme. I wonder why I lost track of it now. To conclude, I fcking miss my beloved Hazy. Was told that she has started working at Cotton On. *insert sad face* I guess she will have less time to hang out with me now. Boohoo. I miss you baby!
Prelims are getting nearer. What more the Os. Pretty pressurizing,you see. I hope I'm done with the preparations by the end of this holidays. At least three quarter of it. Anyway, I missed my dearly Hazy. Where have you been, darl? ): And certainly, I miss boyfriend too. Like always. 

Its 12.40 now. And clearly stated that it is second june of twenty O eight. And it marks our first month. Well, its not a big deal actually. It is just the beginning. How i wish i could show or tell you guys how deep is my love for this guy. Indescribable. [I didn't know how to express it actually. ;)]